Saying Goodbye

I have decided that it is time to say goodbye to my blog and return my social media life to one that is more private and only one for very close family and friends.

Unfortunately life has been very unkind to me in the last 5 months and I feel that I would rather focus on my children away from social media.

Sadly I have discovered that a lot of what I hoped and dreamed for was never going to become a reality and with this has come a feeling that I never knew existed.

I truly believed I had something magical and amazing. By god did I fight so hard to keep it and I stood by some things that I should have ran a million miles from but as with most things in life it just wasn’t meant to be.

I would like to take the time to thank every single person that has supported me on my mummy of 5 miracles journey and that has wished me well and made me giggle through the tougher times.

I would also like to thank the incredible blogging community who welcomed me with open arms and helped me learn some incredible skills.

I wish you all a life full of fun, happiness and may all of your wishes come true

 

 

The reality of being a single mum of 5

Gareth and I have been split now for quite a while but as most of you know we have remained living in the same house and co-parenting. It has become increasingly obvious how this can only be a temporary thing and we have recently been discussing the reality that we will shortly be moving forward with our lives. This includes the Fact that Gareth will be finding his own place and moving out and I will become a full-time single Mum.  Continue reading “The reality of being a single mum of 5”

Am I a secret baby whisperer?

Have you ever had a moment where you feel proud of something you’ve achieved? But not something where you have helped yourself, or something where one of your babies have done something. Last night I helped a mummy who was really struggling with her baby. Continue reading “Am I a secret baby whisperer?”

When do you stop checking on them before you go to bed?

Last night before I climbed into bed I did my usual check of the house, first the doors were all locked. Then the windows were all closed. The heating was on as it was cold and it was off to check everyone’s bedrooms. First stop was the boy’s room where Harry and Freddie were sleeping soundly. Continue reading “When do you stop checking on them before you go to bed?”

Make up – Should they wear it or not?

As part of our Topical Mums panel, this week the other part of the panel were discussing whether or not we should allow our children to wear make up. I wasn’t in this video but I found the discussion really interesting.

Mainly because this is an argument discussion, I have found myself and Gareth having many times particularly when it comes to Ellie my 12 year old.

As I was growing up my mum was never a massive make up wearer meaning that I was never really shown exactly how to put make up on properly. Don’t get me wrong she did show me the basics and gave me some idea of what to wear and where it should go but I see other people with amazing and perfect make up and watch in awe and honestly? I couldn’t tell you the difference between a contour and a foundation or why people would wear a tinted lip gloss instead of just wearing a lipstick.

For me I felt it was important to let my girls experiment with make up and learn the basics so that when they reach an age where they want to actually wear make up they were confident in what they are doing and don’t end up going out looking like coco the clown.

However Gareth was very much against her wearing any make up at all stating that she already looks older than she is and he didn’t want her to create any kind of negative attention from boys in particular. He is incredibly over protective of the girls despite being their step-dad. God help anyone whoever tries to get within 100 feet of them.

I stood my ground

And for Christmas and birthdays we would buy little gifts sets for her to use in the house or for very special occasions. She would spend hours and hours watching YouTube tutorials and now is in fact extremely good at applying make up. I sometimes even let her do my make up if I am going out somewhere and want to look nice. She knows far more about applying make up than I ever would.

Annabelle who is 8 has now got to the stage where she has started to ask for make up and after seeing how good Ellie learnt and how in fact that phase has now gone, she has learnt , is confident in applying it and knows what she is doing Gareth is far more relaxed when it comes to allowing Annabelle to experiment with it.

The other side of the argument

On the video Lauren brought up the fact that children are beautiful naturally and shouldn’t feel the need to cover themselves up with make up. They should be able to express themselves in other ways. Not only that but it could damage their skin and cause them further problems later in life.

So what do you think? Should they be allowed to experiment with make up or should it be an absolute no go?

For me I think it is harmless fun, they have to learn at some point, why not let them learn now, have pamper parties with their friends and just enjoy it?

Thanks for reading

 

Trying to get back a sense of routine

I think that I am not alone when I say trying to get back into some sort of routine after the Christmas holidays can be a little bit of a task. Especially when you are not the most organised of people in the first place and I am not exaggerating when I say I really wish I was. Continue reading “Trying to get back a sense of routine”

Loving the new positive me!

It’s the new year and as most of you know if you follow my Facebook page , This year is all about a new and more positive me. I think I’m doing a pretty awesome job so far at staying positive and not letting things pile on top of me! Continue reading “Loving the new positive me!”

New Year , New Beginnings Make It A Good One

Good Afternoon everyone, I hope you’re all well and not too hung over after the celebrations of the New Year. I spent my new year playing board games with Annabelle, Gareth and a rather smug Harry and Ellie who managed to win most of the games for the first time ever. Continue reading “New Year , New Beginnings Make It A Good One”

Dear Gareth – Merry Christmas & Thank You

Dear Gareth

As you know we decided to postpone Christmas for ourselves this year for a week and focus entirely on the children and making sure that they had the best Christmas that they could possibly have. Particularly when it would be their first one without their much loved Nanny.

We have been through what can only be described as the most heartbreaking and hard year ever this year with so much going on not only around us but between us too.  Our relationship broke down into a million pieces and we lost the ability to communicate.

What people don’t know is that I hit a very dark place, a place that nobody, no friends or family knew about apart from you and despite me constantly trying to push you away you refused to leave the house. You refused to leave me at a time where I didn’t want to see or speak to anyone. Not even you. This was a time where I actually hated you for not packing your bags and just leaving me to deal with my own thoughts and feelings.

For the first time in the 5 years I’ve known you , you made sure before you went to bed that you sat down with me and made sure that I was ok. Checked if there was anything I needed to talk about anything playing on my mind and you put me first.

Today was always going to be very tough the very first Christmas without my mother. The woman who gave me my love of Christmas in the first place. Not only that but it was also the due date of one of the babies I had lost, add to that it being the first Christmas without us being together (the date we got engaged) the pressure and emotions were something that I was dreading. I became quiet and withdrawn  instead of my usual bouncy excited self. But you refused to let me wallow in self-pity and continued to encourage me to stick to traditions that we had created and get excited with the kids.

This morning you woke me up very early only it didn’t quite go to plan  I woke up with full blown flu and severe headaches. I wasn’t able to cook Christmas dinner or even make the trip to cemetery to wish Mum Merry Christmas and instead spent the whole day asleep poorly but not once did you complain.  Instead you took charge.

You took care of all 5 excited children whilst single-handedly cooking Christmas dinner with all of the trimmings.

So I just want to thank you. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for being there and supporting me at a time where so many others just turned their backs. Thank you for being stubborn and not leaving me to wallow. Thank you for not giving up on me even though I keep pushing you away and for being patient when I know it’s very hard for you.

I know we aren’t together and who knows what the future has in store for us but I just wanted you to know how much I appreciate you.

Merry Christmas Giraffe

Xxxx

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year From All Of Us To All Of You xx

As we approach Christmas and the New Year I would like to take this opportunity to wish you all a fantastic Christmas and New year. I can hardly believe that it has now been a year since I very first decided to start my blog and my word what a journey it has been. Continue reading “Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year From All Of Us To All Of You xx”