As we approach Christmas and the New Year I would like to take this opportunity to wish you all a fantastic Christmas and New year. I can hardly believe that it has now been a year since I very first decided to start my blog and my word what a journey it has been.
This last couple of months have possibly been the toughest ones yet and a time that I have struggled the most with. I have found it hard to deal with the fact that people who knew me personally had chosen to anonymously attack me via my blog and whilst I am aware that by having a blog in the first place I open myself up to criticism and not everyone will like me or what I do. I certainly wasn’t expecting people to be so cruel at a time where I was already feeling so low.
I am not afraid to admit that the message I received on my last blog post very nearly tipped me over an edge I didn’t want to go and as a result I decided to step away from not only my blog but everything and as such you may have noticed I have been much quieter than normal.
I will be honest and say that the reason for this is I currently feel like I can’t actually trust anyone. The thought that someone who I may once have been close to can do that has shaken me and I just feel like I can’t bring myself to speak to anyone in a way that maybe I would have before.
For all I know the very people I have been confiding in are the same people who are hitting me where it is hurting. I don’t understand why anyone would want to push someone to the point where they feel they have nowhere at all to turn.
I’m very disappointed that I wasn’t able to complete #Blogmas but I am happy to report we did continue with our random acts of kindness and some of our acts included giving people lifts to hospital, helping an old lady cross the ice with her shopping, collecting gas for a single mother who couldn’t get out of her house during the heavy snow and clearing the paths so that the elderly and children could pass without having accidents.
It’s not all bad
All of the kids are doing fantastic and making us proud with different things they are achieving. Ellie ranked 7th out of her whole year in her recent exam week. Annabelle was absolutely incredible in her recent Xmas play so much so we are taking her for a trial at drama school after Christmas. Harry is absolutely thriving in his new school and has plenty of friends. Freddie has taken himself completely out of nappies after telling us he was too big to wear them on a night-time now and Bethie has started forming sentences now so we are really starting to see her personality come through. Gareth and I still aren’t together but we are definitely getting on much better and having more of a laugh together.
This is the first Christmas without my mother and I am not yet sure how this is going to affect me, my children or my family so we are taking each day as it comes and trying our best to make the Christmas season every bit as magical as it usually is. If you follow me on Facebook you will see I have been adding picture of our adventures on there so you can keep up to date with us until I am ready to fully return to blogging.
I would like to sincerely thank everyone who has supported me and offered me their kind words and I do promise that in the new year I will be back to my old self and ready to face the world again.
From my house to all of yours may you have an amazing Christmas full of love, warmth and happiness and may your new year bring you fantastic fun and memories to treasure