If you know me personally you will know that my brain NEVER switches off. From the second that I wake till I’m trying to go to sleep I am constantly thinking. I still find it alien that people can just switch off/ meditate / think of nothing. As well as that it doesn’t even switch off when I’m asleep meaning that 99% of the time I dream ( no wonder I’m always shattered!)
Now don’t get me wrong here not every dream I have is hearts and butterflies. I have a lot of horrible dreams which leave me waking up physically upset over what has happened but every now and then a dream happens that gives me some reassurance.
When I was 19 I was going through a series of bad headaches which later was diagnosed as Benign Intracranial Hypertension but at the time it was incredibly scary. I had been rushed to hospital and told I had fluid on the brain. When I got there my pressure levels were very high and I was given a lumbar puncture.
As I was so young I didn’t fully understand what was going on just that I needed a lot of tests to rule out anything serious, Ct scans, mri’s and more. This was a lot to take in at such a young age.
One night I fell asleep and I dreamt that my Grandad who passed away when I was 12 was sat in the chair next to my bed. He told me not to worry. That there was something wrong but it wasn’t serious. I would be treated and everything would be absolutely fine so not to stress about it. I took a great deal of comfort from it and crazily what he had said in my dream was absolutely right. I’m on medication for life now but my headaches and pressure are closely monitored and easier to deal with ( although still there)
Last night was another night of dreaming and the dream was so clear it almost felt real. I was sat in a house and my Mum was there. She asked me how things were let me talk and then I asked her if she was happy. Now if you knew my mum she was a very large lady with a whole array of illnesses. The lady in front of me was so different. She was slim, her thin hair was now thick, she had even dyed it blonde!
Her response was I am completely happy, why wouldn’t I be just look at me I am so much better. She then turned to Gareth and I can’t remember exactly what she said to him but what she did say was enough for him to break down and cry ( something he never does)
In some weird way this dream whilst it was simple and straight to the point gave me great comfort. It made me feel that not only was my mum was still watching over me and looking out for me but she was also finally at peace, out of pain, rid of her weight problems that had plagued her and she was finally just happy. I woke up this morning and was immediately happy and content. Yes my life has changed dramatically in the last 12 months but I am alive and I have a whole exciting future ahead. Who knows what is around the corner?
Are you a dreamer? Do you believe that there is ever anything behind dreams? Maybe it’s your inner conscience trying to get a message to you?
Whatever you dream about may your dreams be sweet and if your brain never shuts off like mine then you have my full sympathy.
Thanks for reading 🙂