Dear old me – A Letter to the person I once was

Dear Chez

I am future Chez and I thought I would drop you this letter to tell you a few things. I hope you don’t mind but I thought that if you could read it you may see the person you was and will hopefully be able to bring it back into future Chez at some point soon.

 

There are so many things I want to tell you but where do I begin?

Firstly I would like to say you are a very lucky girl. What you don’t realise is whilst you are moaning about your parents other people are being really badly mistreated by theirs. You think you’re hard done by having to wash the dishes before going out or having to make a cup of tea but your friends parents are making them do everything. They’re having to raise their brothers and sisters. They have to cook , clean and run around and I bet you’re reading this going so do I! I cook, I clean I go to the shop when it’s needed. The difference is you don’t have to do it every single day because if you don’t nobody else will. You know why else your lucky? Because the worst your parents do to you is shout and in all honesty they probably only shout when it’s needed. Other people are getting beaten up by their parents. Living in fear of the next beating. But you wouldn’t realise that because you are so lucky to be living with amazing parents.

 

About the bullying

You haven’t told anybody just how bad it is and that is why you can’t cope. Tell someone straight away and get help. If you don’t think the person you have gone to will help then go to someone else. Don’t bother moving schools it won’t make a difference and in all honesty the next school will be even worse. Stay where you are speak up and get it sorted out then get your head down and work hard. Your brain is more than capable of achieving great things if you just get your head down and focus.

 

Work

You know what you want to do when you grow up so I’m excited to tell you that you will do it! Not only will you do it but you will also be quite good at it but you are too quick to run away when things get tough or something doesn’t go away. When you go to Scotland then have to leave for a while to have your throat operation take the proper time off! Don’t go back so soon after your operation and try to sing. By doing that you essentially throw your career down the loo.

You will be offered some amazing opportunities, don’t pass them by because you think you are in love. If he loves you that much he will still be waiting for you when you get back. If not then it wasn’t meant to be. Think about the future and not just the day. Your ambition to sing on a cruise ship? You will be offered it. DON’T TURN IT DOWN. It will be a big mistake and a regret you will have for a long time to come.

 

Your boyfriends

Not all of them will work out but unfortunately that is just a fact of life. You will think you love them but you won’t really understand what love is until you are much older. The people you believe you will be with forever you wont and you will get hurt but be patient better will come along and believe it or not years down the line those boys it didn’t work out with will actually become your friends. You will suffer heartache but pick yourself back up you will discover it wasn’t your fault and they will say sorry to you. It will be way too late but they will tell you it was their fault.

Don’t run as soon as somebody tells you they love you, they probably mean it but you will never know because when they say it you run a mile.  You will look back when you’re older and wonder why you ran instead of just enjoying it. Also don’t just settle for what you are given. You are a very strong person and you deserve to be treated with respect. Don’t settle for anything less than you deserve. Trust your instinct if something doesn’t seem right then it probably isn’t.

You will eventually meet the right guy, he will drive you insane 95% of the time but you will love him very much. ( Whether or not I still say this in a few years is yet to be seen) but you’ve been with him almost 5 years at the time of me writing this

Friendships

Not everyone around you is your friend. Most of them stab people behind their backs. Your true friends will be there for you all the way through the bad times as well as the good. Make more time for those who care and do your best to help them you never know when you are going to need that help yourself and when you do you will discover you don’t know where to turn. Stay in touch with people you meet because as time goes by and life gets in the way you slowly lose the closeness you once had until you become practically strangers. Take LOTS of photos and keep them somewhere safe so when you do lose touch with people you can share the pictures. ( This pretty cool thing called the internet will be invented and you will be able to talk to people from your past).

What about kids? 

You will be told you can’t have them and you will go through quite a lot but don’t let it drag you down because they are wrong! You will have plenty of children and each one of them will make your life worthwhile. Feel proud of yourself when they achieve something good. It’s because of you and the way that you raised them.

About you

You are pretty amazing and there is a reason people are drawn to you. I know you won’t listen because you’re very stubborn but when people compliment you take it as exactly that. Not everyone in the world is against you although at times it will feel like they are. When people tell you that you can sing and you need more confidence listen to them. They wouldn’t be trying to push you so hard if it weren’t true.

Take better care of yourself, Don’t start smoking and make sure you eat healthily. You will quit smoking eventually but not for a fair amount of year which will end up costing you more than you would need to buy a house in total. Save money! You always have and always will be absolutely rubbish with it. That saying save for a rainy day do it! Don’t struggle when there really is no need to. Make time for yourself, buy yourself clothes, wear a bit of make up. Take pride in your appearance otherwise when you realise it’s time to change and do these things you will realise you got old when you wasn’t looking.

Think carefully about your decisions and make sure that you are 100000000 % sure before getting involved in things and putting too much of yourself into them. That way if it doesn’t work out you have other options.

Listen to my advice and you won’t go far wrong …. Don’t listen to my advice and you will end up like me and wish you had. You give all of your friends amazing advice but don’t take that advice for yourself.

Take Care of yourself and stick to your sayings because they are true Shit does happen and you was perfectly fine before you knew people and will be fine again. Make the most of everything you only get one life, don’t spend it wasting time on false hopes and dreams be realistic and you wont go wrong.

I hope you enjoyed your letter . I know it shocks me too especially when you did awful in your English exams but guess what? You end up writing … yeah I know I find that hard to believe too.

Yours sincerely
35-year-old
Older and Wiser ( OK older)
Chez
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