Every year I go through the same inner turmoil. Have I been to stingy and not bought them enough for their birthdays? I sit and look at the small pile of presents and then I naturally compare it to what other people have bought their babies. I see their mountains of presents, their big balloons and then their big expensive parties etc and I look at the little pile put out for my kids and wonder if it’s enough. I often sit racked with guilt at how little the piles are despite often getting them everything they ask for it still worries me that their friends have more. However when it came to their first birthdays I purposely didn’t buy them much as they don’t know any different at all. In fact I only bought Bethie one toy today the rest of the things were practical such as clothes and things to feed herself with and do you know what? I’m glad I did because she’s only bothered about the balloons!!
The birthday eve
Every birthday eve I put all of their presents on the sofas then I hang banners and scatter balloons. I don’t know why it’s just something I have always done. I wrap all the presents and then get to work on everything else. Gareth and I love to do this together regardless of whose birthday it is and during it we talk about how they’ve grown or changed and Bethie’s birthday is no different.
We were talking about how she’s our last baby and how fast she’s growing up. Her little personality and how in 12 months time we won’t have any babies at all, Bethie will be a toddler, Freddie will be in school and the others are already grown and independent. In that moment my body had a little sad sigh. No more babies, no more newborns, no more experiencing a baby wriggling inside me. I know many people will be thinking oh she said that with Freddie but this time I have had an operation to make sure of it!
I have seen loads of people doing cake smashes with their babies and getting some amazing pictures so this afternoon I am going to put Bethie into a pretty dress and we are going to attempt our very own cake smash! This could either be really good and we will get some fantastic pictures or it could go horribly wrong but I’m excited to see how it turns out. Already we have a disaster in the fact that the cake I bought for it is tiny, it said it serves 6 what it failed to mention was it serves 6 mini fairies so I’m going to have to go and get another one!