My secret anxiety

When you look at me what do you see? Someone who is confident, loud, outspoken. Someone who is a little gobby? Somebody who isn’t afraid to say what they think and who has no problems walking into a room full of strangers or get onto a stage and sing a song? What if I was to tell you that this person hides a secret anxiety?  Continue reading “My secret anxiety”

*warning readers may find some images disturbing* Invisible Illnesses – Terri’s Story – Borderline Personality Disorder

Every Friday I will be highlighting an invisible illness, we all know they exist but exactly how much do we know about these conditions and the people who suffer from them? I myself have an invisible condition and it is very easy for people to assume that because I look OK and I walk,talk and act OK that I am fine when quite often this is far from the truth.

Last week we heard from the incredible Charlie and how she lives her life with crohn’s disease. This week I am talking to Terri and about how she lives her life whilst trying to battle with borderline personality disorder.

Please could you introduce yourself, tell us a little bit about yourself. What you enjoy doing.

Hey, I’m Terri. I like to think I’m a pretty easy to get on with person, it makes me feel better. I enjoy drawing and reading and writing. I basically enjoy a lot of things that I can just do on my own

What is your invisible illness?

I suffer from BPD, Which is Borderline Personality Disorder.

When did you first notice your symptoms?

There were signs that should have been acknowledged when I was around 13/14 years old and everything really started. But they couldn’t really pick up on it because of me going through puberty as well.

What was it like getting diagnosed?

Kind of a relief? Because I finally had an explanation for the way I was and it meant I was one step closer to finding a way to cope with it and still live my life.

How does it affect your day to day life?

Sometimes I can’t even get out of bed, it keeps me down sometimes and not only do I feel worthless but I have always got suicidal thoughts going through my head, it’s just how I’m wired. No medication can actually stop those thoughts and sometimes it gets on top of me and I just don’t leave my bed. A lot of the time I suffer really bad anxiety so if I manage to get out of bed, I can’t step outside I shake uncontrollably, I start to sweat, I can’t breathe and before I know it BOOM, I’m full on having an attack so I retreat back to my bed then as well, because I feel like a failure.

Do people treat you differently because of your illness?

100% although I’m pretty sure some people are doing it subconsciously, like my family… I don’t actually think anyone wants to treat me like a fragile flower but they also don’t want to be the ones to set me off kind of thing?

What advice would you give to somebody else suffering from your condition or perhaps to somebody who may have symptoms?

Get seen, seek professional help asap, not when you’ve already tried to end your life on several different occasions. But when you first start noticing that something isn’t quite right.

Do you know of any good groups or organisations of support for people with your illness?

I wish haha, I tend to vent my stuff on the internet on my blog (which I’ve had to start a new one because I somehow broke my old one oops) So if anyone reads and knows of any internet groups please do tell!

What are your goals for the future?

I want to be a teacher, funny isn’t it? I can’t get out of bed sometimes but my goal in life is actually to be an English teacher someday and teach abroad. I suppose my short-term goals at the moment are to get a better hold on my BPD, make it so it’s actually possible for me to leave the house and get a 9-5 job.

Thank you Terri for sharing your illness with me, not all illnesses are physical and your story shows this. Daddy Giraffe also suffers from Personality Disorder and blogs about it too, get in touch with him as he can direct you to some fantastic support groups.

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2 hospital visits in 3 days, they say it comes in threes …

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I have fallen in love …… With a house!

When you think of people falling in love with a house, you think of these posh new builds don’t you. All beautiful shiny new outsides , clean insides nice little cul-de-sacs . Big drives ways and no-one ever living there before. The other day I was driving back from taking Gareth to get something from a local shop and from out of the corner of my eye I spotted something beautiful! Continue reading “I have fallen in love …… With a house!”

Invisible Illnesses – Charlie’s Story – Crohn’s Disease * some readers may find images disturbing*

 

Every Friday I will be highlighting an invisible illness, we all know they exist but exactly how much do we know about these conditions and the people that suffer from them? I myself have an invisible condition and it is very easy for people to assume that because I look OK and I walk,talk and act OK that I am fine when quite often this is far from the truth.

Last week I spoke to Ar about what life was like living with narcolepsy, This week I talk to Charlie who has been through so much at such a young age and suffers from Crohn’s Disease.

Please could you introduce yourself, tell us a little bit about yourself. What you enjoy doing.

I’m Charlie. I am a mom of 3, 2 boys and a girl. A step mom to one and nan to a little girl. I’m a palliative care nurse and a wifey.

What is your invisible illness?

I suffer with Crohn’s disease

When did you first notice your symptoms?

I first had symptoms from around the age  of 13  and they intensified the older I got.

What was it like getting diagnosed?

Sadly I was only diagnosed when I presented to A&E with sepsis, I had an operation called a right hemicolectomy which showed heavily diseased bowel. They removed a large section of small and large bowel then joined them together. Sadly the join perforated in 5 days and once again I had sepsis.

I had another open abdominal surgery where an ileostomy formed then a huge abdominal fistula. I spent 5 days in HDU and 14 weeks in hospital. I was commenced on crohn’s infusions

 

How does it affect your day to day life?

I have sadly lost my job and my whole life has changed. I am no longer able to enjoy what I did before & suffer crippling fatigue, bad tummy, sore bones and joints. Those have impacted on me being able to work or enjoy many things I did before.

Do people treat you differently because of your illness?

I find people arent well advised about crohn’s and so believe my disease is just toilet related and therefore people
Cant understand why I feel so bad all the time, that in turn helps me to loose friendships etc

What advice would you give to somebody else suffering from your condition or perhaps to somebody who may have symptoms?

I would advise anyone suffering from symptoms of crohn’s to push and push their GP for testing and scans etc before it becomes life or death as it did in my case. Do not be afraid to pester and beg. It could save your life.

Do you know of any good groups or organisations of support for people with your illness?

Purple wings charity & Crohn’s and colitis uk are fantastic sources of support and financial assistance to sufferers.

What are your goals for the future?

My goal is to get into remission and return
To work properly! And to manage a night out and a boogie like I used to love.
Wow! Thank you Charlie for sharing your incredible story and journey with us. I don’t think many of us can begin to imagine how scary that must have been for you but for plenty of other people out there your story will be so similar to their own and they will take great comfort in knowing that they are not alone.

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